I think I am. Too much of romance books, sweet romance shit and imagination and a romanic ex-boyfriend and now an amazing vibrator which gives me two to three orgasms . I don’t have anyone to kiss. Where am I going to get a guy who is going to kiss me crazy let alone give me orgasms. I think I ruined myself for regular sex with a man. DAMN. I still want to feel the stubble or a couple beard on my cheeks. Strong arms around me. Its such an amazing feel. But is it worth all the trouble??
If you read my previous post you will know what i am talking about. I asked the same question to a person who is really close to me. This is how the conversation went..
He says ” If given some time in-between sex we(men) can muster up the same kind of eagerness for sex any given day.”
I asked him.. ” If you think of sex with every woman your attracted to, So what the point in being in love and how can you actually fall in love?
Him: He shrugs and says “There is no connection between love and sex, You can like somebody to death and still be attracted to someone else. We are just made like that”
Me: What the point in loving then?
Him: I love dogs but does that not mean I will have sex with them! In the same way I love a woman and i want to have sex with her because I love her. I want to spend time with her. But a hot girl is there i still think about sex. That does not mean I want to marry her or want to spend time with her.
Me: Then can I assume that all Men are assholes and they will cheat no matter what?
Him: Its assured that we are assholes and sure you can assume but not all of us cheat. We want to if they are attractive but thats not necessarily mean we are going to go after it. Thats what fantasies are for. We find someone who we really like and want spend time with and they are not nagging bitches the we surely won’t want to stray. He even added “if girls can be less nagging and with be good with holding a conversation and little stuff like that we quite become their lapdogs. If only women realise that.
Me: So when your life dream is Sex.. why are most of the women I know are not happy with their sex life?
Him: Well lot of players are there in a game. They love the game and they all play.. Then why are some better than others??
I know its me. Do you?? A beautiful beach side resort( Not too expensive but still on a higher price). Alone. Books, rain, room with amazing view, good food and walkable distance to the beach. Four absolutly blissful days. Thats my signature of being there.
Wait.. it’s just a dream.. I don’t know why dreamt about Al Pacino kissing me as my first true love is George Clooney.. Al was not even young in my dream.. he is just as old and wrinkly but man was he a good kisser 😍 that I was practically moaning. Now am in lust with him. 😔 .. It could’ve have been because I was talking and thinking too much about The Godfather?? 🤷🏼♀️ I hope am as invisible as I think I am to my friends, as this is my secret identity.